quarter life wasted?

The first quarter of my life is fastly approaching leaving me wondering if it was all worth it. Am i really in that place where i pictured myself to be when I was little. I used to sit in the front section of the church pews and dream about my life in grand proportions, the grand scheme of my days played before me until the dramatic conclusion of martyredom. (I always thought if you were to go that would be the best way, at least then i would end up in a rough edged novel endorsed by some Christian rock band)
Reflecting now i find that there is very little that I would actually keep the same....and it is time to make some significant changes....call it my quarter life crisis. For starters, after 24 years of good and bad memories, it is time that I leave the church that I grew up in. Some things are inevitable and this was a long time coming. I know you are not supposed to look back but i will miss those "glory days of SPPA".
It has become increasingly obvious over the last couple weeks and months that my job is no longer appealing to me. It captured me with the promise of great possibilities and now I find myslef trapped in a world I did not bargain or plan for.

I am not saying that my life is all bad. I have been blessed in so many ways. My family is beyond comparison...I have friends that continually bring a smile to my face..and a girl who dispite my ugliest moments, held on.
I have become rather emotional lately i know this, but i think this is part of growing up..a natural reflection of where i have come and where i am heading and whether I have wandered from my path.

I love you guys so much...and although i wont see most of you on sunday morning anymore...we will always have lunch.